Dancing in the rain!

Di Fillhart has this wonderful shirt that says, "Why wait for the storm to pass when you can dance in the rain?" This is a fantastic shirt, so this is random but I was thinking about how God has been showing me more and more of my depraved, wretched self and the closer I feel I'm getting to God the more wretched and depraved I realize I am. Anyway, the "stuff "He is showing me is how much I live in my past wounds, how much fear I possess to leave, and my stubborn will to stay in disbelief in order for me not to make a choice for change. We better be willing to change when God shows us because, God calls us to "take up our cross and follow Him". I have one choice to make because the good and faithful Lord cares for me so much and He longs for me to be willing, so He has to smack us across the head by a four-by-four and take us through the storm so later we can dance in the rain.:) There's the tie in with the shirt! 

One of my favorite examples of God wanting to see us healed is the example of the lepor who, "fell with his face to the ground and begged him, "Lord if you are willing, you can make me clean." and Jesus responded, saying "I'm willing". So many times when I pray I ask the Lord, "are you willing to make me clean?" heal me? change me? are you willing? In response I believe Jesus is asking me the very question, "are you willing to go back to your pain and hurts in order for me to heal you? Are you willing to go through the storm with me so later we can dance in the rain? Are you willing to trust me with no hesitation or unbelief, in other words are you willing to count the cost of the cross? I long to be in utter abandonment that lasts longer than a few hours and yes Lord I am willing, just as long as we later get to dance in the rain. Thank you Lord for your never-ending, unfailing love!